March Rant

Hello and happy spring to all of you! Today marks the third year I have started blogging and it is the 13th anniversary of Lisa’s death. My how time fly’s and answers still remain elusive as the day she died. As I teeter on the edge I am beginning to realize that it has turned into a wonderful hike. I feel the cool air as I breath in the poison and I am surrounded by deciduous beings blasting out healing energy as I carry on. Two things spring to mind as some of the lessons I have learned, not only of Lisa’s death but for every death that followed hers, and there have been many. This is my flowing list;

My father, Uncle Eddy, Scott, Jenny, Heidi, Shadow, cousin Julie, Uncle Roger, Gwen, Ricky-lee, Rick, Barry, cousin Gloria, cousin George, Neighbors, work acquaintances, and now my Aunt Edna. I still feel like I am leaving someone out.

Firstly “TIME” does help with healing as I crawl my way back onto my path. I now walk with confidence that tomorrow is another day to deal with my emotions, which has become a daily process of acknowledging, receiving, feeling and releasing them. It is a very human problem to push them aside and hide them until we are forced to feel them again. I have learned it is better to get it over with and fill the void with LOVE. Let love in! Love of self, love of the memories, love for each moment I am living. Prayer & meditation have helped me and promising myself to live each day being as authentic and truthful to my journey helps keep me grounded.

Secondly, LOVE never fades for those we long to hold. Finding love, experiencing love and letting love go is the lesson we are here to experience. If love is the greatest feeling we can experience and fear the most profound opposite then I have learned my lessons. For to let love go one must conquer the fear and begin to live again. If we don’t, death will overcome our hearts and we will remain stagnant spiraling into non existence. Love is the answer to every question and the prize at the end of our journey. As I teeter on the edge of my journey I remind you to love your way and through TIME,

the future will prove the past!

Spring Forward,

Jacqueline

March Rant

Here I sit at my computer thinking of all the things I have on the go. March has come upon us fast and April is springing forward like “tigger” on steroids! I started my book club back up and we are on month #3, I have started a Patreon page to help me bring forth my Soul Coaching Business, my articles, my poetry and my Art. You can find me at Patreon.com/soul expression writing. I am still editing my second book of poems, and working on three other books. “The Courtship of Gwendolyn Eve” a romantic memoir of my in-laws while they were courting in 1947/48, my second book is “A Generational glance at Anxiety” It’s effect on families throughout 3 generations, and lastly “Re-Inventing Retirement, how “zoomers” plan for the future since 60 is the new 40. It used to be called Boomers but now that we are healthy, wealthy, wise and living longer, we need a different blueprint to align ourselves with.

If that isn’t enough I started painting again, a lost love of mine. I have been following 5 different artists online trying different types of painting from abstract to modern art, still life to impressionism. I may begin to draw nudes again too, anyone willing to model? Mom?

What I have found since all these lockdowns is that for an extrovert I am equally happy as a forced introvert. Maybe its my 8 octopus hands and their twitching for something to do but I like my own company. Not to say I don’t like yours, there are days I am wound up frustrated like a wolf in prison on a full moon night! but I have accomplished to take my own advice, I have tried Yoga, meditation, writing, listening to relaxing music, cooking, reading, and oh yah drinking wine. How has it been for all of you? Leave a comment if you would like me to talk about something you enjoyed or struggled with. Just ask me not to post it and I will keep it totally confidential.

On March 21st 2021 our daughter is having a zoom baby shower and we are excited about that. She had a hard time conceiving and she is the last of our 4 children to be a parent. It’s a GIRL but the name will be revealed soon!

As we teeter on the edge of another New Year, Covid restrictions, masks, and not being free to fly without quarantining or getting a vaccination, let us look within, calm the unsettled parts and put our faith in our ability to create a world where we are all free! where laughter can be heard, hugs rule and smiling faces shows us how much we were missed.

Cheers Everyone,

Jacqueline